🔥1 Last updated Jan 15, 2022. most entries are unpublished or locked, as I figure out how to harness new breath, new inspiration, Love renewed.
Dad & more soul-stuff.
unsilvered mirrors, 1.3.2022
Dad, 1.2.2022
Christmas, 12.25.2021 - 1.1.2022
Most Recent:
Ongoings..
Notebooking.. Daily Collections, Daily Collecting.. attempts to imitate what would normally go on in my Notebooks I keep with me. a little different than s-notes where I’ll start anywhere & wander, these are collected ideas for later sifting & development (even though all the writing here can be considered as such).. observations, soul-movement, attempts at depth and metaphor
-Baby Souls, 2.13.2021, Memorial of Our Lady
-Soul Weather, 2.12.2021, Feast of the Seven Holy Servite Founders
-Hello, 2.11.2021, Feast of Our Lady of Lourdes
-Again, 2.10.2021, Feast of St. Scholastica
- Forget, 1.26.2021
-Notebooking, 1.25.2021
Good mornings..
!!!.. lots of these.. I started these back in May?
- Dearest, 8.27.2021
- Flight, 8.23.2021
- Clarion, 8.20.2021
- Consecrate, 8.19.2021
- Know, 8.18.2021
- Walls, 8.17.2021
- Mark, 8.16.2021
- Moments, 8.13.2021
- Benevolence, 8.12.2021
- Everything, 8.11.2021
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- Know, 5.27.2021
- Dovetail, 5.26.2021
- Wake, 5.25.2021
- Come, 5.24.2021
- Bride, 5.21.2021
- Change, 5.20.2021
- Within, 5.19.2021
- Two, 5.18.2021
- One, 5.17.2021
- Again, 5.14.2021
- Diffuse, 5.13.2021
- Shh.., 5.12.2021
- Yours, 5.11.2021
- Movement, 5.10.2021
- Marian Love, 5.8.2021
- Temple, 5.7.2021
- Simple, 5.6.2021
- Metal, 5.5.2021
- Afterglow, 5.4.2021
- Color, 5.2.2021
- Light, 5.1.2021
- Dawn, 5.1.2021
- Foundation, 4.29.2021
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Eternal Father series.. pondering and mentionings of the Father and Intimacy with Him as His little children.
- Move, 5.14.2021
- Here, too, 5.13.2021
- Intimacy so real.., 5.13.2021
- Here, 5.12.2021
- Father, the Index, 5.10.2021
- Here, 5.10- .2021
- Intimacy, 5.10-11, 2021
- Yours, 5.10.2021
- This, 5.7.2021
- More, 5.4.2021
- in Love, 2.10.2021
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WIPs..
- Cloud, 5.28.2021
Writing Workshop & Process Notes.. Dedicated thinking space on writing process.. musings on writing, monitoring my efforts, thinking my writing strategies through, noticing phases, next plans, etc. Past posts on writing will be posted under this category, soon.
- Heartbeat, 4.22-23.2021 - Feast of St. George
- Anticipate, 3.10.2021 - Feast of the Forty Holy Martyrs of Sebaste
- To my First Patron, 3.1.2021
- Movement & Growth, 1.28.2021
- Writerly Things, 12.22.2020
“Real” substacks.. ..me figuring out what to offer on Water to Wine..
- Somersaults, 4.20.2021
- Random, 3.27.2021
- all of Yours is mine, 2.12.2021 .... Friday series, Vol 1, Issue 1
-Mock Newsletter, 1.24.2021
-Lifted out of Purgatory, 11.02.2020
-Connecting on All Saints’, 11.01.2020
Attempts at Essay.. self-contained glimpses, focused musings.. what I’m really aiming for on this substack, but what will likely occur 2x a week - Non nobis, Domine, non nobis, sed nomini tuo da gloriam.
- Corpus, 5.19.2021
- Interior, 5.6.2021
- Waiting, 4.12.2021
- Change, 4.9.20201
- Stirrings, 3.24.2021
- Annunciation, 3.25.2021
- In Love, 2.10.2021ii, Feast of St. Scholastica
-Man, 1.26.2021
-Tonight, 1.22.2021
-St. Teresa’s Bookmark, 1.16.2021
-Quit the Collective and Love, 1.13.2021
-On Being Disturbed, 1.10.2021
-Quo Vadis, 1.5.2021
-Back to the Mystical, 12.29.2020
-Notes on St. John (for essay), 12.28.2020
-a day, 12.25.2020
-Warrior, 12.22.2020
-Holy Help, 12.02.2020
-Life is Charming, 11.23.2020ii
-How to Crush on God, 11.23.2020
-Observations, 11.15.2020
-On Holy Attraction, 11.14.2020
-My Life the Metaphor, 11.12.2020
-Waiting, 11.11.2020
-Here, 11.06.2020ii
-Tower of David, 11.01.2020
-Veni, Vidi, Vixi, 10.22.2020
-Mute, 10.21.2020
-Scales & Balances, 10.20.2020
-Contemplation in One Our Father, 10.18.2020
-A Secret, 10.17.2020ii
-Another Whisper, 10.17.2020
-Facets, 10.15.2020
-Two Natures, 10.12.2020
-Loving Neighbor, 10.11.2020
-Love Letter to My Future Son-in-Law, 10.01.2020iii
-Dappled Rain, 09.21.2020
-Notebook a Desert, 09.19.2020ii
-Cookies and Prayer, 09.18.2020iii
-About the Cat, 09.16.2020iii
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s-notes.. entries from my Scrivener on my laptop, collection of small thoughts, having half a conversation with friends, those who subscribed to receive my ramblings in their inbox - AMDG
- Ongoing, 5.20- .2021
- Move, 5.14.2021
- Whence, 5.5.2021
- More, 5.4.2021
- Nothing, 1.27.2021
-To Think, 1.19.2021
-Holy Little Collection, 1.15.2021
-[Insert Title Here], 1.4.2021
-Darkness, 1.29.2021
-Weekend +, 12.18.2020
-Thoughts, 12.10.2020
-Why Mary, 12.09.2020
-Father, 12.04.2020
-A Minute, 12.02-04.2020
-Slowly Sauntering, 11.26.2020
- Opening Thoughts, 11.26.2020
- Closing Thoughts, 11.25.2020
- Choose, 11.20.2020
- More Wanderings, 11.19.2020
- Messengers, 11.20.2020
- Come, 11.062.020
- Interrupted, 11.05.2020
- Day After, 11.04.2020
- Return & See, 10.13.2020
- Hello, 10.10.2020
- Confession, 09.22.2020
- Making Love, 09.19.2020
- Processing Past Twitter, 09.18.2020
- [Notes] on Purity of Heart, 09.17.2020ii
Series
From your Scribe in the Scriptorium.. texts I love & want to share with you.various typed up texts
The Christian at Mass.. 1896 Catholic book by Father Joseph L. Andreis, with the approbation of His Eminence James Cardinal Gibbons, Archbishop of Baltimore.
- Parts of the Mass - The Christian at Mass by Rev. Joseph L. Andreis - Google doc
- Intro - Old Mass Book, 2.24.2021
- First Instruction, 2.26.2021 - Priest moves from Sacristy to Sanctuary, Christ goes from the Last Supper chamber to Gethsemani, Christ’s mental agony, Christ offers Himself freely.
- Second Instruction, 2.27.2021 - Priest kisses the Altar, Judas kisses Jesus.
- Third Instruction, 2.28.2021 - Priest moves from Missal to the center of Altar, Christ is dragged, presented before Annas, Caiphas, false witnesses, Peter’s denial.
-Fourth Instruction, 3.1.2021 - Priest moves to the Missal, reads the Epistle, Christ brought before Pilate, Christ trial begins.
- Fifth Instruction- Carrying of the Missal to the Gospel side, Priest inclines in the middle of the Altar, recites the MUNDA COR MEUM, Christ is brought before Herod, Christ is clothed with with a white garment, Christ doesn’t speak.
- my little Mass commentary, 2.26.2021
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To Know Christ Jesus .. family holy book study for Lent 2021
- To Know Christ Jesus by F. Sheed (reading schedule, discussion questions, etc.) 2.27.2021
- Know Jesus, 2.28.20201, updates on family progress
- Know Christ, 2.27.20201, Feast of St. Gabriel of Our Lady of Sorrows - on choosing To Know Christ Jesus by F. Sheed for a family book study
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The Passion of Jesus and Its Hidden Meaning.. by Fr. Groenings, Lent 2021
- The Prayer in the Garden, 3.20.2021
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Soul a City series.. serialized story of a spiritual journey
-Soul a City, 11.24.2020
Struggling series .. off-track, immersed in the secular, rebuilding my prayer life
-Holy Rosary Notes, Vol 1, Issue 1, 1.24.2021
-My Prayer, 1.22.2021
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Treatise series.. what I’m working on for Catholic National Novel Writing Month, my little version of National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo)..
-Baby Mystic, 11.23.2020iii
-2. True, Divine Romance, 11.09.2020
-1. Begin Treatise, 11.07.2020iv
-Outline, 11.07.2020vi
-Treatise Process Notes, 11.07.2020v
-Scripture & Saints - References & Resources, 11.07.2020iii
-Disclaimer, 11.07.2020ii
-Treatise Table of Contents, 11.07.2020
-Questions, 10.24.2020ii
-Map that Treatise, 10.24.2020
-Veronica, go higher - if you ever get lost again, 10.25.2020
-Canonical Hours for Christ the King, to sanctify my writing: Matins - Lauds - Prime - Terce - Sext - None - Vespers - Compline
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poverty of soul, poverty of heart series.. Recalibrating.. really trying to turn that stagnant water into strong wine as I pursue the Will of the Father in Love. A big one. God, deliver me from myself..
-Still, 10.16.2020
Retreat, 10.04.2020
-See, 10.02.2020
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poetry
- Within, 5.24.2021
- Flame, 5.4.2021
- Hand and Soul, 10.11.2020ii
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retreat series.. a week’s worth of writing as I try to extend & really imprint what I learned on Silent Retreat.. because I forget.. I don’t want to forget.
-God the Father, 10.09.2020
-Grace Like Mary’s, 10.08.2020
-On Today’s Grace, 10.07.2020
-On the Devil, 10.05.2020ii
-Retreat, 10.04.2020
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purge series.. focused struggle of putting my soul *back into the box* of my heart in anticipation of a Silent Retreat. There are ways I know how to be, ways I know how to think.. my little Lent.
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debrief, a singular, ongoing post - a space to decompress over Twitter.. to peel away..
Genesis of this page.. Or, one day, I went on & on..
..because I’m embarrassed & feel naked. Not ashamed.. just..
I’ll try publicly listing possibilities to help me focus.. Commit in a world of preference. It’s hard to dance between the two.. I think of you, me, and the grander scheme.
I’ll add to this, I hope not to take any ideas away.. please say a prayer for me.
Ideas to Come
-Building the story of your life, complete with theme music
-Building the home of your soul
-The Ten Commandments of [Guess]
-More Process - the Build-up to Creativity, the Build-up to Prayer
-liturgy of a little life
-How to be Hopeful when you think you’re in Hell.
-Memory
-Immersion
-My Imagination
-Position Paper
- Exile Series - slowly peeling myself away from being fascinated with the world — really, a decades-old romance with the internet & peering into people’s minds, souls, hearts.. that transition into the Silence where I belong, among the Communion of Saints in the Body of Christ.
- My Little Carmelite Alphabet, 9.17.2022- intra-entry series - the most important ideas I love & try to live by (my Little
Random Notes I’ve written on this List:
gonna start revising this, reorganizing, thinking.. Quo vadis, Quo vadis..
- 9.29.2021
+ JMJ +
God, my Father, I offer all my desires, intentions and prayers in union with the desires and prayers of Jesus for this little work. Amen.
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..dearest, this list is not complete and won't be until I cross-reference every single printed entry - my goal, I want to touch, highlight, mark my words for other things. I almost have enough for a tiny book or a little chapbook. My favorite entries are my most recent, dating from about end of April to now, nearing the end of May, 2021. Closest to my heart at this time (as I briefly go through this list) are in Love, Yours, Intimacy, Within, and Bride. It almost seems all my wandering has come down to those entries, revolving around loving God and neighbor, while abiding in Love as Jesus commanded, in movement toward the Eternal Father. End of April, I believe, marks the closing of this substack and making it private.. which allowed for greater freedom of expression. I’m so glad you’re here with me.❤️
- VdM&J🔥
5.22.2021, 4p